L I E

tbh,

'it's okay' is NEVER OKAY FOR GIRLS…

NEVER !!

that word is like the biggest lie that a girl would say

i've been lying all this time and noone seems to care about it. 

OF COURSE IT'S NOT OKAY

thing is, i-dont-know-why girls always talk like this (including me)

i-dont-know-why it's so hard for us to just tell the truth

we're like expecting the other person to 'pujuk' us 

but in the end we're the one hurting over and over again

it's our sweet own problem that guys should understand

because sometimes (read: all the time) we cant even understand ourselves

always hoping for something, but never even tell people what we want 

and 'girls' we're expecting that little-surprise (a surprise that,, God knows what it is in their mind?!) to happen !

how is that even possible

it is crazy

but that is woman 

and woman is me 

so im crazy

Ra

buhhsy

everyone so busyy, so im left with my own thoughts …

wish i could have a cat like before

i think most of my problems are safe with C (mycat)

RIP, wish that you could be here with me right now C 

Research

One word of advice :

Do not look down on your research !

Do not think that you will manage to get it done with your 'last-minute' style !

Do not ever think about it !

Always, always think positive even though your research topic is something you are not fond of

Must believe in yourself that you can finish it on time

Ok that's not one 

I am a final year student in my last semester (6th, 3-year programme). Basically, this semester is my last semester. Finally it has come to an end.

But the very last semester is something different than previous semesters because there'll be no classes or overload assignments or whatever not. This semester is internship semester and FINAL YEAR PROJECT semester.

I thought it's kinda possible to work and do research at the same time. I really dont know how PhD students can survive in this kind of environment. I am clearly a Degree holder but doing those two things at the same time is IMPOSSIBLE ! (okay yes i alwasy think negative bout it, which is not good)

Because my topic of research keep on changing, proposal is due in few days and (what!) i have to change my topic again. Truth to be told this is my 3rd or 4th time tukar my research topic. And no it keeps adding kesengsaraan in my brain.

So when ever I nag bout it to my friends (I bebel all the time), 95% of them said that I'm having a complication and my problem is so f**a*i*g complicated.

nuff said, brain needs some brain-time

Ra

internship

Being a practical student is soooo much different than i-wake-up-early-and-go-to-class student.

Okay so now, I do believe those people who have told me earlier you will experience a new life. A fresh start for a new life (that is like the same word each and everytime you enter new phase of life, seriously). I got pretty excited when it comes to 'punch-card' thingy. Yes i've never work before (dad doesnt allow me). 

Whether you like it or not,  all you gotta do is to work no matter how bore it can get, seriously ! You have to choose what kind of industry that you have passion into. A word of advice…

DONT LET OTHER PEOPLE CHOOOOOOSE FOR YOU!!

Im serious, because thing is you are the one who knows deep down inside yourself who you really are and what your passion is/are (but not me, i have no clue what im gonna be in the future) dont judge.

Fret not, internship wont take your whole life drown to the drain. It will only lasted up to 4 to 5 months or maybe less (depends on your uni). February down, three more months to go. I CAN DO THIS !!

a place that will make my a** fatter 

(due to not-moving-and-duduk-do-work-until-5pm)

Unfortunately, internship is not the only thing that i have to handle in my last semester. While doing my interns we (me and classmates) have to do a research and also prepare for our viva. We have to juggle all these at once lets pray hard that I'll nail it! 

Ra

commencement

Hi...

I am not so sure what was I thinking at the time and suddenly the fingers start moving click-click-click and tadaaaaa now i have a blog already. 

Looks like im just being a mushy-mushy (what's that?) . Haha, okay so here's the thing I AM NEW.

Let's just give it a try

Okay,bye.

Tee