H A T R E D

Im writing this because i need to express the rear feeling that lies in the heart of a girl.

Girls are undeniably complicated at times all the time. She may or may not express her feelings to the other person because she cannot literally describe it. (that's like the hardest part of all)

DESCRIBING THEMSELVES

Girls or i can say women, they have a hard situation in describing themselves. That is why they would want other people to describe them. In the meantime, women actually will feel (kind of) appreciated when people tend to observe her. Fret not, the behavior is good or bad, they would listen to them bits by bits. 

I am a girl or turning into woman. And yes, I know. 

There are times that women would feel disgusted or annoyed by some people's behaviour. Especially the ones who dont appreciate their gestures. That is why men out there, you should really encounter the word 'tender love and care'. 

BECAUSE

no matter how brutal a girl can be or ignorance or maybe heartless, they are still the same. Deep down of a  woman, actually has a veeeeeeerrrrrrrryyyy fragile heart. They are the main actress in our lives. They tend to look perfectly fine outside but (God knows what's inside their heart) you never know. 

I've been in the situation of getting stabbed on my heart thousand times (virtually). How this things happen? It comes from your knife words that'd be swallowed by most of the girls and it literally stucked on the heart for awhile forever. 

These are the things that they will remember for forever ! Your words, your actions, your behaviour, all of these give a massive impact to a woman's heart. But nope you dont know that because of your egoistic attitude jumped right through the clouds sooooo high that you yourselves cant reach (men). 

im no broken-hearted girl 

Ra

EMERGENCY!!!!

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

GUYS ! EMERGENCY!!!

What should I do now? 

I certainly am aware of my tummy is getting bigger than ever!!! 

NO !! NO!!!

I AM NOT PREGNANT ! FOR GOD'S SAKE!

But I'm telling you the truth. It's getting bigger

Ok yes. I eat all the time. 

What?! Work out?! Errrrr. Nooooo. Rarely happens. Once in a blue moon, I can say. 

Bad habit, I know. But i only manage to get fit only for a month then I go back to my love-hate relationship with food. 

What should I do????

Ra

Mother

I am feeling over-sensitive lately. 
Is it because of my premenstrual syndrome (PMS) and I dont really feel good, it aches my heart whenever I got into my unstable emotions. 
It is just so-weird

This post is a special dedication to my special someone. Mader

Truth to be told this is gonna be my emotional post. Haha.

I couldnt imagine my life without this person i called Ma, even when we had arguments over she wont allow me to do this, she's not fond of me doing that. Whatever things that she didnt allow, there must be specific reasons why she wont allow. 

First main fact is because, I am a girl. 

Being a girl is (no doubt of it) COMPLICATED. Especially nowadays we heard of those people who always become the vicitim over crime scenes are GIRLS. Okay maybe some of them, they just kind of involve in the crime scene, well that certainly is different story. 
That is the main reason why mother always being over-protective over you girls.

You might be rebellious about it sometimes. Because you didnt get what you want, you didnt get the freedom that you want. To be honest I am like that most of the time. If there's one thing that crosses my mind and I want that thing, the thing I must get in wtv way. Plus after we've entered the adulthood but then your parents are still controlling your sweet own life. That is the time where you get pretty annoyed with it. 

Come to think of it, after i have come to my senses. They are being over-protective because they love you. Things happened to them and fret not they really dont want the same thing happened to you. Because they literally know how it feels. 

I seriously cant imagine how my life's gonna be without them around. I just cant, and I should stop thinking about it because it will just lead me to tears-dropping. 

You cant be mad at them for more than an hour because the love they have given you is eternal. No one can ever replace the love of a mother to their children. EVER

Ra