You will always keep your problems to yourself, in fact you keep everything to yourself. Even when someone says something that doesnt mean to offend you, but you got touched by it. And let alone recover yourself without telling anyone about your feeling. Is it a good thing or not?
It is actually not good to have this kind of behaviour, because one day you will burst it out to someone innocent. Pity him/her. But yeah i always put other people's first before me. I hate when people has the thought of, you know 'i dont like her because she's like this and that and this that'. So whatever it is i put my needs after anyone else, even when sometimes i dont feel like i want to do it but i just did because the other person ask for it. Swallow them hard guys.
And sometimes i do have this feeling of having low self-esteem to myself, which is a bad thing as well. But you know crap that. I dont believe that i can do this, i dont believe that im able to do whatever that im doing, and the list goes on and on. All i need is someone to say that im not actually like that, but all i get is a person who says that i am rusty in all of that. DOUBLE PAIN GUYS! So it is true that im getting bad at it.
I am feeling uneasy, uncomfortable, incomplete, all the negative words floating in my mind waiting to be sink deep down in my thoughts and it goes through my heart and stays there never leave.
I feel like crying now
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